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Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby GoddessInside » Mon Jan 24, 2011 4:11 pm

Hello, Hello, Hello !

It has been quite a while since I was last here, so many new faces and lovely old ones to see :) Alot has happened since I was last here, many highs and lows, many laughs and tears and unfortuneately many kilos gained .... again.

I started another thread, under a different handle - Unfulfilled Life as I was too embarrased and ashamed that I had put on all my weight and more from 2008. I recently asked a moderator to delete that thread for a couple of reasons but more importantly, I was not being true to myself and I should not have to feel ashamed. I've made mistakes, made poor choices and here I am.

On New Years Eve, I promised myself that I would seriously not make any NY Resolutions and I stuck to it. I joined the gym on NYE and signed up for my personal trainer ( which I've had two sessions with already). I had become desperate and my only way to right the wrong was to dive in, head first. On NYE, I weighed 211.5kgs.

2011 will be the year of many firsts for me, I will be starting my degree, meeting my wonderful man ( I am in a long distance relationship - 2 years in May !!! ), Which ofcourse leads to me travelling to The USA, overcoming my depression ( I have medical support ) and I am in the right head space to lose weight.

I started losing weight by myself and got back on the shakes - Optifast; only to realise that I could no longer do it, I felt ill, sick and yuk. So I joined weight watchers and am trying to get my head around Pro Points. How can I be on a whopping 68 points ? I don't know. I will have my first weigh in on Tuesday night, last week, I weighed in at 203.1 kgs. So I lost a fair bit by myself to kick start my weightloss.

I have been exercising a minimum of three times per week and will gradually build that up to 5 maybe 6 times per week. I have set myself a goal of losing 50kgs in 10 months. To some that may be alot and to a degree it is, however having all this excess weight, I am blessed ( ironically) that the weight falls and I mean falls off in the first 6 months. My PT has also advised me that 50kgs is very do-able given my circumstances. That goal will coincide with going overseas and meeting my man :) And no, please don't worry, he is not superficial, he loves me for me, he has seen me at my heaviest and extremely supportive. He's quite fit and athletic, so I want to be able to match him and do things as a couple together, not be stuck at home because I can not do anything.

The journey this time around is all about Atonement. Making The Wrongs, Right. Ammending everything I have done and learning from it to help me, be the person I am and not allow my weight to hold me back. It's all about getting control of MY life and living it the way I should be, not settling because I have no other choice.
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby matchbox » Tue Jan 25, 2011 12:00 am

i wanted to "like" this, but then i realised it wasn't on facebook. haha. i'm not on here much anymore, but will try and popin more to check up on you. you are doing a fantastic thing koukla, and have done so well already! keep at it :mrgreen: go kick some butt :P
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby GoddessInside » Tue Jan 25, 2011 9:05 am

Thank you my sweet. It has been a very hard and long road, but nevertheless, I am here :D

I did have my measurements taken at the gym, but have misplaced them, or maybe they are jsut at home LOL I have my first WW weigh in tonight and feeling okay about it. I am still trying to get my head around ProPoints. Its harder than I first thought, I dont know why. I have done their points system before, perhaps its harder because I am trying to get my head around the new points values :)
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby äirly » Wed Jan 26, 2011 4:17 pm

Goodluck GI!! I hope everything went well at WW last night. Really admire you for jumping in with both feet.
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby jessmeow » Wed Jan 26, 2011 8:09 pm

Congratulations for taking the first step! Good luck and I look forward to hearing all about your success! :D
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Postby sizing_down » Wed Jan 26, 2011 10:12 pm

Well done for making such a big move in the right direction! I hope your weigh in was a positive experience.
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Postby laurenmcnaught » Wed Jan 26, 2011 10:58 pm

Hope you weigh in went great :) Can't wait to hear how everything goes
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby GoddessInside » Thu Jan 27, 2011 8:03 am

Hi All and thank you for your support !

I had weigh in on Tuesday and was a little disappointed as I thought I would have lost alot more. But there were two factors that were beyond my control that affected my weigh in. 1. The Heat; which caused fluid retention ( my ankles were the size of two tennis balls - NO JOKE ! ) and 2. TTOM; which we all know is a foe of the scales LOL

So My weight is now 203.00

Just have to keep moving forward !
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby SkinnyBride2B » Thu Jan 27, 2011 8:32 am

Goddness,

Thats still a loss - so well bloody done! And once your weight shifts back to 'normal' (ie no heat and not being TTOM) you'll probably find you have a bigger loss next week.

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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby yoyogirl88 » Mon Jan 31, 2011 8:59 pm

Congratulations on the loss and good on you for standing up and being open and out there. So strong and you can do it!
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby GoddessInside » Tue Feb 01, 2011 8:46 am

Thanks Guys, Am thinking of skipping weigh in today as it is going to be 42 degrees here in Sydney and I already have terrible fluid retention. My ankles are so big and swollen and Im finding it so hard to walk, hence why I have not been to the gym :( I've been trying to eat well but I think the fluid retention is giong to counter act my efforts with food this week :(
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby GoddessInside » Wed Feb 02, 2011 9:35 am

Well, I still went off to weigh in yesterday despite my fluid retention and was pleasantly surprised.

LW 203.0
CW 199.9

3.1kg loss.

I think I am going to change my meetings to a morning meeting as I get far too anxious and stressed about the afternoon weigh ins, especially since I have a fluid retention problem.

Anyhoo, am doing well on the exercise front, went back yesterday after hassling from my PT. Did a 1.6km walk in 35 minutes with a 1% incline. Tonight doing some boxing. Really looking forward to it :D
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby äirly » Thu Feb 03, 2011 10:28 am

Wow, I know you lose weight quickly, but still I'd be very pleased with 10kgs in a month :D I think your on target for you goal? Good luck for this week XD
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby court » Thu Feb 03, 2011 11:11 am

isn't the heat in Sydney just horrible!! I feel like I am retaining so much fluid as well!! Excellent work GI and best of luck for this weeks weigh in :D
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Re: Goddess Inside: Atonement

Postby GoddessInside » Thu Feb 03, 2011 12:26 pm

Thanks Ladies. I was really surprised with my weigh in as I really did not expect such a loss.

I've been working really hard with my trainer and had the last of my introductory sessions with her. So I signed up for another 20 sessions and will be upping my training to twice per week, Mondays and Wednesdays :)

I actually dont give myself enough credit, We were boxing last night ( my request ) and we were travel boxing ( I think that's what she called it ), as in we were going around in circles and I was chasing her LOL ... I am so pumped after it. I feel like going back for more today !

I have also changed my normal treadmill workout. My regular work out includes a minimum of a 3km/hr walk witha 1% incline. I didnt realise how much that does for my fitness. I sure as h3ll can conquer "Step" workouts and my squats. I can now easily do 45 squats and push myself hard to do my 60. I am looking forward to upping that to 80 squats per session.

So feeling really really good at the moment !
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