I'm a bit of a newb here so I thought I do a little intro here in our dedicated board.
So far I've lost 23kgs! Go me! *dance* I've done so by going to the gym for 1 hr 5-6 times per week and eating healthy and calorie controled. It seems like such a huge success and yet I feel like I have so far to go! Double in fact >.<
I'm trying to think in smaller goals so it doesn't seem so increadibly scary and impossible! My goal at the moment is to be in double digits by june for my cousins wedding. I'll have to work pretty hard over the next 18 weeks but I'm trying to take it one week at a time! Sometimes one day at a time! I didn't have anything naughty today for example, however I didn't go to the gym because I hurt my back. It really peeved me off actually that I couldn't go. At the moment I don't even know how well I'll do tomorrow because it's still a little stiff. Grr
For me weight has been a battle literally my whole life. I was put on my first diet (by a dr) when I was 4 years old and it's been one after the other since then. The most weight I have ever lost on a diet (before now) was 5 measly kilos
. This time, however it has been compeltely different. My aunty has lost over 53kgs in the last 18months and she is a HUGE (pun not intended
) inspiration for myself and my mum because she also battled her weight her whole life. She looks amazing! I don't think I would have come this far without her encouragment and support. I actually feel like I have hope for my skinny future and it isn't just the day dreams of a little fat pig.
I've always been on of those big people who let their weight literally control their lives and stop them enjoying what should be the best years. Some of you may have read elsewhere that I decided to defer university this year because of my weight. I really admire those big people out there who can just go through life without their weight effecting them!
I was actually planning to have some sort of weight loss surgery around june this year. I joined a medical fund last year for that exact purpose but instead I've used it to claim money back from my gym membership and it's the best thing I've ever done! I dont' think I'll ever forget how it felt (still feels) to walk in and feel like I'm not supposed to be there because gyms are for skinny people and how I think everyone is looking at me and judgeing me but surgery, for me, was to extreme. When I first went to the gym one evening with mum and my aunty to have a look at it and get a feel before we actually joined I cried all the way back to her house because of those feelings. But somehow I still convinced myself to go and I honestly have no idea how I did. Seriously! If anyone is thinking about joining but is worried for those reasons seriously, just go and do it! It helps to have someone to go with though. I still don't feel as comfortable if I go by myself (my mum and I go together each morning). Make it a small independant gym though. Not a scary huge intimidating one! (my cousin who is a sz 8 won't even go to them!! lol).
So that's my little story. Hopefully I can update you guys with my progress over the coming months getting towards double digits! I don't even remember the last time I was in them. Many many years that's for sure! I've actually made myself a little graph showing how much I need to loose each week to get to doubles by june and I'll write down my current weight each tuesday morning. Normally I don't keep a record of that kind of thing but because I want to loose a fair bit pretty quickly I need a progress report for myself. I'm going to buy some little star stickers to put on it when I get to each weekly goal!
Maybe a frowny face if I don't lol!
.. I realised just now that I've lost my age in kilo's! Wow! That's really weird! lol
Anyhow, I hope nobody is bored to tears reading this