Thank you both.
I only ever have TTOM for 2 days (I know, I know, I'm one of the lucky ones
) which is why the pain is so awful for those first 12 hours. I just wanted to throw up so badly!!
I am just about finished now so I will weigh in tomorrow morning, but I was totally bummed to see the scales read EXACTLY the same as last Sunday - 87.8kg. Mind you, when I weighed in on Tuesday, the scales had jumped up to 88.1kg, so I guess I have lost what I gained. The fat percentage went down another 1.5%, so I suppose I should be celebrating that fact and my measurements I took almost 3 weeks ago have gone down too, although not by a lot.
But in reality, I am having a real pity party today with myself. It is SO hard to stay encouraged when people around you are dropping kilos all over the place, yet for me, in almost 3 months, I haven't even hit the 6 kilo lost mark yet
, despite how hard I am trying.
To be honest, I am truly devastated by how hard it is for my body to lose weight. I have never, ever been met with anything so hard in my life, and I seriously contemplated just giving up today, accepting the fact that I am meant to be this size forever. I try so hard to support other people and celebrate their achievements, but right now, I seem to hate everyone who is thin, who can lose weight, who can reach a goal. I know this is a 'moment' and it will pass, and hey I will probably pick myself up and kick myself in the butt, but right now I just wonder why I even bother.
On a side note and completely off topic - I bought the Just Dance 1 & 2 games for the Wii and spent 5.5 hours on Saturday doing it with the kids, and another 1.5 hours this afternoon doing it and I CAN NOT MOVE. I am sore in places I never dreamed of, I can't lift my arms over my head, dress myself, nothing. It completely works you out, and it is so much fun! I love it and will continue to do it and hopefully everything else will fall into place