well, here I am again at yet another attempt to get back to my lowest weight loss point of 89 kg and keep going down.
I have been up and down like a yo yo the last four months and probably have lost 20 kg on and off, but here I am 5 kg heavier and trying again.
this weight loss thing is so hard, and I cant believe how i'm struggling. When I was at my peak of losing weight I couldnt believe I would ever fall off the wagon, I felt great and was so focused ,nothing could stop me.
somewhere along the line, old demons crept back in and comfort eating won over ,and the weight has gone back up. A symptom I know, but now I feel blah blah blah again.
the difference is ,before my weight loss journey I would of just kept eating, but now it doesnt feel normal to do that. My newer habits of exercise and healthy eating are calling me back into the fold. I am trying so hard to get back to that place in my head where I dont need junk food to make me happy. My mind says its no good for me, my emotions say another thing at times:cry:
I have drawn up an exercise chart for the next four weeks, commiting myself to 5 days a week at least. I went for my first swim yesterday since May. I swam for an hour and it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Then off to curves today and that felt pretty good too.
I'll take it a day at a time and hopefully by my birthday on the 28th of next month I will be back to 89kg and ready to loose some more by xmas to be at my lowest ever..
thanks for reading my ramble. only positive thinking from here on in.
Like, into my size 14 roxy shorts by the new year