Well, I got through those essays. I had about 5 hours sleep in 60 hours, but I'm good now.
And guess what?
I'M GOING HOME ON THE WEEKEND!!!!!
But that's got me thinking.... I was just reading some other threads about people noticing weightloss... The last couple of times I've seen my mum, she's looked at me like she wants to say something (positive, I mean, "have you lost weight, you look good, etcetc") but has stopped herself, which I really appreciate, cos it's meant I haven't had to say "yes, I've decided to actually try and loose weight at the moment", aka, admit that I have a problem and am trying to fix it, admit that I'm not perfect, not doing the right thing, and all that. But just now I started wondering why...
Two possibilities... One is that she knows how I feel about body compliments - I can't stand it when the first thing someone says to you (or anyone) when they haven't seen them for a while is "you look good! Have you lost weight?" expecting it to be a compliment. I mean, seriously, is the world THAT hung up, that all we care about is whether a person weighs less than they have since we last saw them, not all the other things they've done in those weeks/months? It really, really pisses me off. And my mum DOES know I feel that way. So hopefully that's why she hasn't said anything.
But the other thought that occured to me... what if my mum is a member of this site, and has read my posts, and worked out that it's me? I love her so so so much, but in some of these posts I haven't been 100% kind to her, let everyone know I stress about her noticing I've lost weight, etc etc. What if the reason she hasn't said anything is cos she's seen those posts??? I don't want that!!! Nu-uh!!! Hopefully lack of sleep is just making me paranoid. I haven't seen anyone post details that coulds belong to my mum, and as far as I know, she's not on a weightloss kick atm... *sigh*
Now I feel really rubbishy...