Last night I had a big think about what I've accomplished this year in terms of work, school, fitness, friends, love, money... all that. I suddenly realised how petty weight loss was. Like women years ago never dieted, counted kjs and exercised to excess... they just WERE. If you have time to do all that, you obviously aren't doing much in a day.
I accept myself now. I told myself that yesterday "I accept myself", and it was like a weight lifted off my shoulders. I read somewhere "don't try to be a second-class someone else, be a first-class YOU", and those words rang so true. I have a naturally size 8-10 body, and trying to be a 6 just isn't me. The amount of sacrifices are not worth it for me, I'd rather spend my time being a kinder, more giving human being rather than become skinny. It seems so selfish now that I think about it, and such a total waste of time and life. The women I look up to are involved in charities, speak out, dress immaculately and love others. I don't think being 53kgs will really help me in my life journey.
I'm not fat by any means, I think my weight is currently about 58kgs but I'm happy. Plenty of women even in the fashion industry have made it without being a rake (I'm thinking Kirstie Clements & Nina Garcia), so it's more about personality, talent and an eye for detail. And as long as they keep making size 10s I'll be fine hehe
Now that I'm not trying to lose weight I'm not sure how much longer I'll be around the forum, but it's a good place to vent hehe.