Good on you Mimosa for being motivated to go to the gym and eating well today.
I can totally identify with you on the whole 'is this what I'll be doing everyday till I retire at 60?' and just feeling like an employee all the time. I don't hate my job but at the same time i don't jump out of the bed in the morning with excitement. You get that whole 'isn't there something more exciting or more meaningful for me to be doing with my life?'.
Hopefully you find what you enjoy in the near future and can find a way to make it happen. What is your dream job?
First Mini Goal - 95 kilos: Done; Second Mini Goal - 90 kilos
GW: 56 -- reward = walking tour of Italy (my dream)