Ella is 'Almost There'... AGAIN!

[Tarz]

You should take deep breaths and then breath out like your blowing out birthday candles!

I actually found myself doing that at the gym last night then realised that the girl on the machine next to me kept staring at me with a funny look on her face. I felt stupid but it helped my breathing so i kept doing it.

[loveat116]

You should take deep breaths and then breath out like your blowing out birthday candles!

I actually found myself doing that at the gym last night then realised that the girl on the machine next to me kept staring at me with a funny look on her face. I felt stupid but it helped my breathing so i kept doing it.

Its amazing what it can do! I was getting non stop stitches, so i could hardly run, then i read about this breathing technique and it has completly fixed it!

My boyfriend just brought in flowers to my work!!!!!!!! AWWWWWWWWWW shucks. Never had that happen before

[ali76]

Aawww....we love Sebastian!! What a sweetheart!

I can feel the warm fuzzy lovely dovey feeling coming from every word you type about him!!

[loveat116]

Ummm ok didn't do too well last night.
Went out for dinner and had 4 slices of Ham & Pineapple Pizza (and it tastes HORRIBLE) and a GOOD handful of wedges.

Thank god i didnt eat anymore later on like I usually would.

TODAY:
Breakfast: Serving of Special K w/ 1/2 Cup Light Milk
Lunch: Salad w/ Capsicum, Fetta Cheese, Red Onion and Spicy Chilli Tuna
Dinner: Vegie Delight Subway w/ Diet Coke

Exercise: 4km Run (later on in evening)

Weight: 55.9kg
ARGHHHHH!
I shouldnt be gaining weight like this!
When I go speak to the doctor today i am going to tell him about my ravenous hunger lol..
And that im gaining weight like crazy!

Dont think I will be 54kg tomorrow, but hey miracles do happen.

[loveat116]

I FINALLY got my old scales back.
Will weight in tomorrow morning with some ACCURATE measurements.

Pretty sure I have put on at least 2kg though

TODAY

Breakfast: 30g Crunchola + 1/4 Cup Light Milk
Lunch: 1/2 a tuna salad (tasted yuck) and a sultana bran cookie (THAT I MADE )
Dinner: Cup of stew (tasted HORRIBLE) with a slice of bread
Dessert: Caramel Le Rice
Snack: 3 x Hollow Choc Eggs (around 350kj each)

Exercise: 4km Run

Went OK. I could have done without the chocolate...

TOMORROW'S PLAN

Pre-Breakfast: 4km Run
Breakfast: Serving of Crunchy Nut + 1/4 Cup Light Milk
Lunch: 1 x Sushi Roll
Dinner: TBA
Snacks: Caramel Le Rice + Sultana Bran Cookie

[loveat116]

ACTUAL WEIGHT: 55.4kg

Not SO bad... better than I thought.
I will weigh in tomorrow to double check and then update my siggy.

[loveat116]

Weight: 55.2kg

Getting back down there!
Its SOOOO cold today
im wearing
3 socks
Jeans
Boots
Shirt
Jumper
Another Jumper
Coat
Scarf
Beanie
Gloves!

hahhaha....hmm yes thats hobart for you

TODAY:
Breakfast: 1/2 Cup Crunchola + 1/2 Cup Milk (169 cal)
Lunch: Butter Chicken Curry with Rice (450 cals lol)
Dinner: Something at the boyfriends parents (unsure.. estimate at 400cal, its always pretty healthy)

Total so far: 1019

[loveat116]

Actually had 2 x Chicken Sushi Rolls for lunch.

... And a fundraiser freddo lol!

But been good the rest of the day. I go home soon thank god!
Been drinking heaps of water today too!

I was in Country Road today and tried on a gorgeous pair of denim shorts, and they were the tiniest bit too small in the leg! Im thinking I should go back and get them... i could fit into them at goal. They're a four lol... but they're really like an 8! Bless.

[electrongirl]

Country Road has some beautiful things!!

[loveat116]

Did not have a good week

Didn't go on a run ONCE

GAAHHHH
I dont even want to step on the scales and see what they say

[loveat116]

REALLY BAD WEEKEND

yesterday:

Breakfast: Doritos w/ salsa (about 100g )
Lunch: nothing
Dinner: meatloaf, gravy, pumpkin

Snacks: 2 x lollypops, 200g low cal yoghurt, 20g cheese, TONS of apple juice ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

[Tarz]

All i can say is it could have been a lot worse!!!! Don't beat yourself up about it. And at least it was low cal yogurt
If your annoyed about it use it as fuel when you do exercise. I find i do better exercise when i'm anrgy.
And more importantly i hope you had a good weekend not food wise.

[loveat116]

Breakfast: Small bowl of Sultana Bran + a little milk, 1 x Pancake w/ Maple Syrup (HUNGRY!)
Lunch: Minestrone Soup
Snacks: 175g Yoghurt, Babybel Cheese, Apple
Dinner: Unsure

I got up in the middle of the night and had 2 pancakes though

Weight: 55.8kg grrrrrrrrrr

[loveat116]

Was mega depressed yesterday...
So I went and bought clothes and stuff.. didn't make me feel better lol.

I bought:
2 x Tops
1 x Bonds Jacket
Curling Wand (a wide barrelled one WHICH DOESNT EVEN WORK)
2 x Bras
3 x Underwear
1 x Tshirt
Awesome wooly bonds socks
BIG packet of cookies

Hrmmm...
I didnt want to turn to food when I was upset, even though this alternative wasnt good I kinda needed the clothes lol.
I still need a wallet though.
And I have found a guess one that was on sale that I really like..
Might have a look at Myer too... I would love a Guess bag.

Its nearly 10am and I havent eaten anything yet...
Not even hungry
Im just so bloody confused at the moment.
I broke up with Seb, it just seems that I love to hurt myself.
i did it cause i didnt love him and wouldnt feel that way about him.
And it wasnt fair to let it keep going when I didnt feel the same way.

I've passed 3/3 tafe assignments so far. And have completed 2 units...
My last assignment was 5,000 words.. I went a bit overboard haha. Sometimes I find it difficult to explain what I think on paper.

I've packed a few cookies and yoghurt for today, so i'll eat those when this knot in my throat goes away

[Tarz]

I broke up with Seb, it just seems that I love to hurt myself.

I am so sorry that you had to end it! But understandable if you don't think you will feel the same. Shame the retail therapy didn't help. Not really much i can say except try and keep your chin up. I will try and focus on the positives instead.
Well done on paasing the TAFE assignments and completing 2 units. How many units do you have left?