HOLY CRAP i just lost a HUUUUUUGE response argh!!! i will try and summarise since i'm far too stubborn to type the WHOLE thing again:
THANK YOU so much girls, i am so glad and grateful for your encouragement and support - you are both wonderful and i don't think i would have been able to get this far without your help! you girls rock
I think i will go to the gym and do a bit of cardio for the next couple of weeks, then ask for a reassessment - and a complete 'show me how everything works since i have no freaking idea' kinda thing. i'm really embarassed though. but on the other hand i kind of hope they will yell at me and get my butt back into it - do you think they would do harassment calls if i asked?
i know what i have to do and how to do it, i did it before (healthily!) now just have to get back into ACTUALLY DOING IT!! (went on holidays and stacked on a few kilos - a few too many visits to the lindt and guylian cafes i think!

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i don't think i'll be able to keep up with D, i think he will have to slow down the pace for me anyway
Mandie - that's awesome about your 21st - i bet you looked and felt great! and i'm sure the pictures reflected that and how much of an amazing night you had - sometimes pictures cna turn out so much more beautiful than you thought because you were ACTUALLY happy and enjoying yourself! sounds fantastic!

Ali - i am so glad you're still around!!

i missed you

*squeals* yes i am very very excited! hehe
thank you for the luck - i'm thinking i will be needing a lot of it the next few weeks - busy busy!! there's not much in teh way of that kinda stuff at uni, plus i live about a 40 min drive (each way) from uni which sucks - like this morning i had only one class..which ended up being only a 35 minute lecture! if i'd known i would spend more time driving there then actually sitting in class, let alone driving home in peak hour traffic, i wouldnt've gone!
thank you ali

i really don't think i can thank you enough! you are such a lovely, caring person and you just rock
on another note - i didn't eat after dinner last night! i tried to keep myself busy, but it didn't really work

so i tried to get my mind off it by talking to D as much as i could and reading up on some stuff - seemed to work

so i'm very happy about that since i considered the open bottle of coke in the fridge plus all the leftover easter eggs (they're evil!!

) and... i even had BREAKFAST this morning

i made eggs on toast, with some orange/mango juice - was yum, i wish i could do it every morning! they usually keep me full for a while too, which is good.
i'm thinking of making some mini crustless quiches to take to uni this week - will have to see how many eggs i have left! just need something quick and easy anyway, and it stops me from eating the crap at uni

its yummy - but not health-friendly at all!
will make sure to keep popping in every day - knowing my procrastination skills it will be multiple times a day.
hope everyone is well!
xx