OK girls i have to admit it.... I NEED TO GET MY ASS KICKED
i have been SO lazy and unmotivated, and while i was going relatively ok for a little while, my mum had a huge bake up last night that means muffins, cookies etc. and they taste good. not fair!! i know that being holidays doesnt help either. i have no routine any more and to be honest i'm quite bored already! work is giving me hardly any shifts (2 short shifts last week and NONE this week!!
COMPLETELY unimpressed!!) which means i'm not doing a whole lot apart from bumming around at home, going out, and seeing D. And when i can't see him i'm bored out of my brain! and really, clenaing my room is the last thing i want to do I NEED TO GET BACK ON TRACK
I'm going to write a list of some of the reasons why i'm doing this and hopefully it will help:
to look hot
to feel more comfortable in my bikini in summer
to look gorgeous on my birthday, and to have great pictures from it! i don't want to look back on them and cringe, and know i could have put more effort in, but didn't because i was lazy.
to be a bit more toned - don't want flab everywhere - i want some muscles!
to not be completely embarassed when D and i go bike riding
to be fit and not out of breath when i do littler things.
so in short - gorgeous, fit, strong.
i know gorgeous probably shouldn't come first, but hey, if that's what's going to get me there.....SO
i need a plan of action. i want to do something different, that i haven't done before but i'm not sure what. any suggestions
While i'm undecided, i think i will go to yoga tonight. i just need a kick up the ass really. i have noone to be accountable to, noone to go to the gym with, and i am nowhere near as overweight as i once was. i am getting to complacent where i am and am thinking that i don't need to do any more since i've already lost so much weight, but i WANT to and NEED to, i can't just leave it now. i mean sure i have lost a bit of weight, but i'm not toned, or fit at all, and i'm still quite flabby. i want to look HOT. I know my boy loves the way i look, but sometimes i wonder if i could make him just go
I want to look gorgeous standing next to him! I want his friends to think that he did the very best, and picked someone so fantastic for him, i want them to think i am perfect for him! sorry if that sounds really lame.