littleway - I know exactly what you're going through!
It seems we are in similar situations.. I have lost about 23 kilos so far and up to the last 5 or 6 kg. It is so so so hard. You have to be really hard on yourself. Im at about 63kg and aim to get to 58, then hopefully 56.
And I deifnitely know what you mean about the friend thing. Right now my goal is to lose weight, so eat healthy and go to the gym. And I actually love going to the gym. But my friends dont get it. They know i treat myself on weekends, and eat well during the week, yet they still ask me to go have mcdonalds and stuff with them for lunch.. or they ask me to come do things at the time of day when they KNOW i go to the gym. I feel guilty if I miss a gym session so I make it my priority. Dont get me wrong, I love seeing my friends, but generally if they ask me to do something, ill tell them sure but I want to get my gym session out of the way first. But I feel like theyre looking down on me. Or if I catch up with them, sometimes ill pack my own healthy lunch while they eat out and I feel like theyre looking down on me then too. Since I started losing weight I have become so distant from my friends because they are all very big people and just stuff their faces with crap, like i used to. But thats it.. i USED to. I wish they could respect my lifestyle, like i respect theres. its just so hard.
ULTIMATE GOAL: 58kg