No though love from me darl, just some practical advice
It seems never ending huh? The constant calorie/point counting and we all know the simple formula to lose the weight. Unfortunately, there's one big mother arse stop sign that prevents us from going further to achieve our goal sooner: OUR MINDS. This stop sign is shadowed by thoughts and emotions. The former conjuring up the later.
I'm reading this fantastic book by Mary T Browne (she's a Psychic and a spiritual counselor) called "The 5 rules of Thought". It is about using the power of your mind to overcome obstacles and achieve great success. I have found myself having light bulb moments and agreeing with a lot of what she has written. A book well worth reading if you believe in the power of thought (not everyone's cup of tea). Anyhow, she talks about how emotion is a switch, it is the thought
that powers the emotion - whether this be a positive or negative thought, it is what conjures up that emotion; and how on we have the power to turn that switch "ON or OFF". She further goes on to explain that we can have thoughts that become self consumed which hang around and plague us. For instance, we have the desire to lose this weight, we do everything in our power to achieve that (diet and exercise) but at times we neglect the power of thought. The mind is biggest weight loss tool and if we don't align our thoughts and us the power of thought we will constantly face hardships in achieving our goals.
Browne argues this:
"You think intensely about these foods even though you are disciplining yourself not to eat them. This intensity produces a distinct type of thought form known as "hanging" thought form. It is called hanging because it persists as long as you have the desire for something. You created a form that hangs over you even if you focus your mind on other matters. As soon as your mind is free, the hanging thought form will become apparent again. You will have an overwhelming urge to consume the foods you were trying to avoid. You will go to the bakery, buy a cake, and eat it, even if you are not hungry. You will call this temptation, but in fact you created this yourself. Nobody tempted you. You were the one who created this thought form. Strong thoughts always manifest. Therefore, it can be very difficult to stay on a diet. A clear thought, visualised and repeated will manifest itself in the physical world"
My interpretation of this paragraph is this: because we have labeled certain foods as BAD/DO NOT EAT ON WHATEVER TERMS we are programing ourselves (unconsciously) to want that food. And when we attach that food to a negative forming emotion it causes destruction. So in a sense it is controlling you, your emotions are going out of control and you are finding it hard to resist the power of that thought, it becomes difficult to concentrate and things become chaotic and we just feel out of control, hence wanting that binge and falling of the wagon.
Shel hun, your probably wondering were I'm going with this long winded babble but I'm coming to that
. From what you've written, you are getting disheartened with the constant point counting. You've been trooping along fantastically, to achieve fabulous results and you know what you have to do and you've pin pointed the culprit. Self Sabotage. Because you've become disheartened with the point counting and the strong, overwhelming emotions are taking root in your thought process which are causing you to want to consuming the "NO, No, BAD food". You are know thinking "I'm on a diet, I have to lose this weight so I can't eat this food". You have unresolved situations in your life and you turn to what is a constant and feel out of control about it (I know I do this, which is hard to overcome but is doable, or so I'm programing myself to do
Also because you have programed the thought "failure" into your subconscious you are programing yourself to do this. Ask yourself this: have you come this far in the past? Why do you want it and what is REALLY stopping you form achieving your success? Don't look at this as a diet to attain the visual goal you want. Look at this as a life style change, so if you want that packet of M&M's have a small one, include it in your points and don't feel guilty about it. This guilt is fueling those hanging on emotions. Visualise yourself looking gawd damn sexy and hot
SEE IT, FEEL IT and most of all BELIEVE IT. Because you will get there.
This is just a little bump in the road, a hurdle to overcome and I believe that you believe, YOU my beauty have the will to overcome this. You will ultimately get there hun.
And if the point counting is doing your head in stop for a while. You know what are good point foods and what are not so good point foods (which are allowable and good to have every know and then), how much you should eat and portion sizing by now. Just write down what you eat but don't count the points, I bet you'll surprise yourself that you CAN DO THIS without having to count points.
You have come so far hun and will go further, just watch this space....