Hello I have been a member here for a couple of weeks now and I think its time I told my story.
As a child I was the smallest girl in my class but all that changed when I went through puberty.I gained 30 kilos within 18 months and shot up to 180 cm tall.Let me tell you that those "growing pains are real"
I was 100 kilos by the time I was 15 years old and my realationship with food was quite poor.I used food as a soother because I was being bullied at school.
At 16 I could not take any more of the abuse so I left school and got a job. I was doing alot of incedental exersise at the time so I managed to loose 16 kilos without trying and my weight got down to as low as 84 kilos.
At 19 I met my first boyfriend and not long after we moved in toogether.I shot up to over 120 kilos within a year and at my 21st I was at my all time heaviest of 123kg.
When we split up 4 years later I managed to loose 20 kilos but I didint have to try as it was all due to stress.I should have kept going as it did feel good to loose all that weight but when I met my husband the weight started to creep back on slowly.I used to love cooking meals for us and we would snuggle up on the couch toogether and watch movies and snack on crap......
It was jan 8th 2005 when I woke up with chest pains.I was frightened and I turned to my husband and I said I cantgo on like this anymore.I was so so unhappy to the point I considered ending it all because my life had become a misery because of my size.
I was afraid of going out because people were "staring at me" but in reality they probably wernt but in my mind they were.
I had zero confidence and I could not find anything to fit me that didint look to old on me.
On that morning of jan 8th I was staring down the barrel of turning 30 that August and it was in that moment that I literally "snapped"
I knew in that moment something had changed and there was no going back.I went out that day to rebel sport and purchased a treadmill and I started the fight for my life.
It has been jst over a year since that day and I have lost 37.9 kilos to date.I feel so good about myself now.I feel like a new person and I am looking forward to loosing a further 12 kilos or so to get to goal.
I am about to go down to a weight I have not been since I was 12- 13 years old and I am so exited as I know 100 percent it is going to happen because I will make it happen.
Phisically I look like a different person but inside I am still the same Nat everyone knows but isint it amazing how differentley people trest you when you loose weight????It freaks me out becuause I am still me.I might have alot more confidence as a result of loosing all that weight but I am still me inside.
I am now on the last leg of my journey as at the start I had almost 50 kilos to loose.I am on the home straight now and nothing is going to get in my way.I have well meaning people in my life telling me to stop now and that I have lost enough weight but I am still 6 kilos away from the top of my healthy weight range and I want to get to 75 kilos.I think this is a relistic height for me as I am almost 6 feet tall and I have a medium to large frame.
I look forward to getting to goal soon and sharing the rest of my journey with you all.