I have been married for 41 years to my husband, and I began gaining weight not long after i got married. He had to travel alot the first 20 years of our marriage and we ate out so much that I bega putting on the weight and during that time I had two children and keep gaining weight.
When I realized how big I was I began dieting and could never stick to one in order to lose the weight. I would lose alittle but only to gain it back. Now I am at my biggest ever and just have to lose it. It depresses me so much to be so large. I feel people stare at me and I can barelky fit into the booths in a resturant anymore. I have to shop in the fat ladies sectionof the stors to buy my clothes and I hate that. They never have anything nice I want. I have health problems to now with my knees and hips and can barely walk anymore.
I just have to lose this weight. With me staying so depressed all the time about it it pulls everyone down that I love.
I feel so embarresed to be around anyone any more, I have even stopped going to church because I feel so fat and all the other women in my Sunday School class are thin and dress so nice. I want to be like them so badly.
I did not even go to my class reunion last year because I did not want to face all my school riends looking like I do now. I felt like I would be critized and I could not take that so I did not go to it.
I do not have pictures taken of me because of my weight either.
I have have test to run on me to see if I had any mnedical problem that is causing me to be so fat but it was none, just my bad eating has caused it. I wish I could control my eating, it has gotton so out of hand that I feel like I am not in control of myself anymore. I feel awful all the time and I don't like it. i use to be happy and fun to be with but now I feel no one wants to be around me. Even my sister fusses at me for being over weight. She is not big so she does not know how I feel. i tell her but she does not understand. I am a emotional mess right now.
Everyone thinks I can just stop the eating and lose it but its not that easy, at least it is not for me.
Well thats my true story.........Not a good one but thats all I have for you.