It's very hard to know where to begin, though I warn you, this will be something of an essay so be prepared for lengthy reading!
It was first mentioned to me by someone I worked with a few months ago, my boyfriend also told me he had been on it before, to success.
I stumbled across this site whilst doing some research and have read all, yes all, the various posts and threads people have posted regarding their experiences and opinions.
I weigh 88kg and am 175cm, 24 years old and have ALWAYS struggled with my weight, both mentally and physically, typically being the victim of constant taunts and bullying throughout my life,though nothing new there, I am sure many of you can relate!
I'll be honest, I love food. Without making excuses for myself, my lifestyle means I seldom cook though I try and balance my liking for different foods by walking EVERYWHERE, sometimes up to 8kms in one direction, swimming occasionally, drinking so much water I often crassly remark that 'I drink like a fish and piss like a fountain', but I have never been able to shift my weight to a very noticable standard!
Ordinarily I take a size 16/18, but I have always wondered what it be like to have a flat stomach, wearing smaller sizes and not have to worry about pools of sweat in places there should not be any, wondered how it would feel to not be asked 'when's it due' and not to be offered seats on the train where signs permit (yes, this has happened more than once!)
I carry most of my weight around my middle, a tyre, a mummy tummy, even though I have a very narrow waist and am naturally an hour-glass figure, I look like an apple or some other extremely plump, round and ripe fruit! People comment on my face alot telling me I am a very pretty girl which means from the neck up I'm fine, and I agree.
I'm so over it.
Duromine is my last resort. I am so keen to feel more comfortable in my own skin that inspite of my nerves, I have come to the decision that I will try it for a month (30mg) then report back to my doctor and have him assess my progress as I maintain a log here with you good people, my 'Duromine Diaries'. I have thought ahead and planned a daily schedule that consists of a reasonable balance of exercise, small and proportioned light meals all around my daily activities.
When reading other peoples reports of the side effects they have had, I noticed that not one of them was identical, everyone had different things to say and different experiences, some good and some not. It's no secret that people are different from each other in general, so why not have different side affects. To be honest, entering into such a serious regime and not knowing exactly what side affects I will have is the only thing I am really concerned about. I find myself feeling nervous, restless and anxious, but as my mother always said, 'there's no point worrying until you have something to worry about', so with that in mind, I think I will just go for it!
Tomorrow morning at 6am when the pharmacy opens, I will go and collect my prescription and take my first pill.
I am not going to rush into frantic exercise or limiting my food intake on the first day, that I will begin on the second. Instead, I am to spend the day with a friend, just going about usual business but under his watchful eye purely because if I do feel frazzled as per typical side affects or something unlike to them, I would rather have someone around me to help me out and keep me in check!
There's something very encouraging and almost theraputic about having written this here for you all,I feel a little more at ease knowing there are so many others out there going through or have gone through the feat I am about to embark on, so I will post each day with my progress for the next two weeks, and would more than welcome any comments, support, relation, advice or feedback that anyone might have and hope that by my keeping this online diary, I too can be a source of support, encouragement and experience for everyone out there in the same boat as me!
Until tomorrow evening,
Bambi B x