I asked mum to take me to the doctors tonight instead, my brain was a bit of a wreck today and I couldn't wait any more so we went in and waited for the next appointment.
I got mum to do most of the talking as I was kinda scared and didn't know what to say, my doctor was really nice though, his referred me to a psychologist which I will be seeing on thursday.
I've finally taken the first step to getting better, so I guess that will be the positive thing I can be proud of today!
Thank you for your support. Your comments on this post have been helpful
I think I want to keep posting about how I'm going and my journey to get better, just to sort of help me and get any feedback people may have to offer, an to maybe offer some help to anyone else out there suffering from any other sorts of eating disorders.
I know it will take a while and I will have to be persistent but I'm excited to get my life back on track, get healthy, get my happiness and confidence back and learn to have a normal relationship with food.
Hopefully through what I learn I will lose some weight too, I guess that's kind of an alterior motive I have to doing this.