**Note: When I say a "little" loss, I am fully aware that 20-30kg is not a small amount of weight to lose. I just mean that in the context of my large starting weight, I'm still obese and nowhere near my goal weight yet!
I used to weigh around 140kg. I never really weighed myself at that time, but when I first saw a dietician, I fasted for 2 days before she weighed me, and I came in at 138kg. So I figure I was approximately 140kg.
Over a period of approximately 6 months, I lost almost 30kg. My lowest recorded weight was 110kg. I've maintained this loss (more or less) for the last 18 months, with my weight fluctuating between 110kg and 120kg.
The difference it has made to my life has been incredible.
At 140kg, I barely fit in aeroplane seats. I was buying size 26 pants and size 20 tops. I looked like a giant blob. I got asked to leave an amusement park ride because the safety harness wouldn't close properly over my giant stomach. I was too big to enjoy shopping, too self conscious to dance/go out, and too shy to go swimming.
Now - I'm obese, but because of my proportions, I fit into size 16 tops and size 16-18 bottoms (depending on the brand). I have definition in my face, I can see my collarbones, and I can feel my hip bones. I fit into aeroplane seats, I can go on any amusement park ride (and have done!). I love shopping (and spend way too much money on clothes), I love going out, I dance up a storm (and who cares if I'm unco?) and I wear a two piece bathing suit (okay, it's a tankini.. baby steps!).
I have so much more confidence in myself. I no longer look like a giant blob. I think I look pretty, there are lots of things about my body that I like. I think I can look pretty sexy in my underwear.
(my boyfriend thinks so too)
This relatively small loss (in the scheme of things, my loss is small - I still have about 50kg to go) has made such a MASSIVE difference to my life. I am LIVING now. I'm not afraid anymore. I like going to the gym, I like feeling my body get stronger. I am not embarrassed to buy size 16 clothes (because it beats a 20-something!) and I am not embarrassed to try new things.
It's amazing to me that I feel so good, and have so much confidence at this weight.
When I started losing weight, I thought it would take until I was at my goal weight to feel confident, buy nice clothes, try new sports, and get a boyfriend.
I feel great now. I'm continuing on my weight loss journey with a focus on lifestyle changes that I can maintain long term. I'm doing it for me, for my health. Not to impress a guy, not because I hate myself.. but because I love myself, and I want to be the best person I can be.
...I wrote this because somebody wrote a little while ago about being discouraged about having a LOT of weight to lose. I thought I would write my story so that you can see that you will start to feel good LONG before your goal weight.. and you will get there! But you will start to enjoy the journey, just like I am...