My life is a bit of rollercoaster mentally and emotionally. Long story short I get stressed out to the max very easily and tend to shut down.. its kind of like a hibernation in most ways for weeks or sometimes months on end, which, of course, affects my motivation to lose weight greatly. As much as I wish to avoid it, I know that eventually I'm going to have to be on medication and visiting a psychiatrist. But for now while I'm in one of my coping and positive phases, I'm trying everything I can to be healthier and happier.
The first step of which is to try and maintain focus on losing weight. I'm getting a little better at letting negative emotions help fuel positive activities. Which I think is the key for me.
My weight loss journey really started unintentionally when I was in Canada on holiday for 6 weeks in January of 2006. I was eating quite a bit better and far less simply because I staying with people who weren't fat. I know when I went to Canada I weighed a little over 100kg, but I don't have an exact figure because at the time I was sticking my head in the sand about my appearance. When I came home I decided enough was enough, and I started doing something about it. My first weigh-in was 98.8 kg and within 3-4 months I had gone down to 82.something kg.
Unfortunately I had another unexpected emotional and mental turn which completely threw me and before I knew it, January came about and I weighed almost as much as I did the previous year, at 95.8kg. It was early February when I had a good look at myself, got on the scales and told myself tomorrow I would weigh less. So again, for about 3-4 months I put in the effort and got down to 78.7kg. Yet again I was hit with an unexpected mental and emotional turn which saw me turning to alcohol every weekend, and despite being fairly careful with my food; the calories in the form of alcohol were making me slowly undo my hard work. I crept up to 83.6kg and it wasn't until a couple of weeks ago that I weighed myself again and realised what I was doing.
Today I weighed in at 81.6kg, with my very-short-term goal of 78.7kg within close reach.
Anyway I'm sorry if that seems like me rattling on to any of you, but it's quite important for me to remind myself of that every time I visit this thread.
To me this isnt just about pictures, its about all the forms of progress I want to make to be a healthier and happier person.
So far I've come from 100kg to 81.6kg, my next goal being:
78.7kg, then
75kg and then in 5kg goals until I've reached my desired weight of 60kg. Once I get there I want to decide what my next goal would be.
Pictures:
The first picture I don't know exactly how much I weigh, but i think it was taken in January so my guess is that it was close to 95kg.
The second I took today after shopping, and I weigh 81.6kg.
They arn't exactly great photos, and I don't think I look like I've lost much, but hey - on my way down, right?
im sure that jotting down your feelings about it all will help with your weightloss journey. we are all non judgemental here and are looking forward to supporting you the whole way. a lot of us here are yoyos when it comes to our weight but working out what triggers it will helps us all come up with techniques to overcome that. best wishes
And thankyou 
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