Fireball's story - I am

[Fireball]

This year I will do it.
I will challenge why I have wasted so much time and emotional energy thinking about what I should or shouldnt eat, feeling bad about it, then putting on another kg, again.
I will do what is important to me.
I will define me.
So this year I am.

I still think of myself as normal weight until I start puffing walking up stairs, see a photo of myself or feel my joints are cramping up. I used to think, "I can't believe a person would let themself go like that!" and now I'm heavier than the people I used to look at! :shock:

about 1979 I weighed 56kg and felt physically great and my younger (I now realise jealous) sister said - "Are you anorexic?"
I have been putting on weight for 29 years and yet it is a shock to me, I never dreamed this would happen to me. Slowly it crept up on me, like the cat upon the mouse ... 20 years ago I was in pretty good shape although the pattern of weight gain each year was set. why? oh why?

Some people think that people who are overweight are lazy and unmotivated. That definitely does not describe me. Physically I'm not fit. But I have so much motivation, I will at the drop of a hat drive 15km for a nice Chinese takeaway. I race around a lot so I can easy eat 8500- 9000 kJ and still lose weight, without an exercise program, that is just normal living.

I do owe a debt to all the fantastic people on this forum. You make me feel positive, cared about and you give such good advice and information. Thanks to You, I really do feel empowered.

Now if I can just get my act together ------ I am

[HappyBella55]

You Are

You can do this. Reading what you wrote, it sounds like you've had the moment where it's finally clicked. You are worth it and you will achieve your dreams

[EvilWombatQueen]

Good on you Fireball. I'm sure this is going to be your year for weight loss. It sounds like you a really determined. Yay you!

[ellecee]

You made me want to read your post a few times...wonderfully determined...and with that determination you will surely succeed.
All the best to you!!
LC

[Fireball]

Stats to make me think:
I only weighed about 68 kg when I was 9 months pregnant! At my heaviest I got to 47 kg more than that. I am currently 44+ kg more than that. OMG
My adult son only weighs 62kg.
My stomach is nearly twice the cm that it was when I was 28.

[jess_jess]

Fireball, 2008 is our year to reclaim our bodies! good luck i'll be struggluing along with you but we CAN do it!!

[Fiona25]

You can do this fireball!

I can't wait to follow all your great progress

[GoddessInside]

You Are ... Going to do this
You Are ... Determined to change
You WILL ... Succeed !

I look forward to sharing your journey with you Fireball

[Fireball]

Thanks for your encouragement. i am really determined. It is important for me but also my daughter who in her 20s is already obese. I need to learn how to do it so I can help her avoid the long term problem too if possible.

[Fireball]

Hey. My husband, adult son and I went to see I Legend tonight - we enjoyed it.
But the movies is a particular horror for me - I always binge. I usually tell myself that I don't go often blah blah blah. Sound familiar? But I have decided I mean it I am going to lose this weight.
My husband had - large coke, twisties and choctop. Ooooh I love the choc top & the twisties. Can't drink coke at night anyway because the caffeine keeps me up all night.
My son had - 2 choc tops and maltesers. Ooooh I love Maltesers too.
I had - 1 Slurpy/slushy That's it.
I am proud of myself. Yes. I am going to lose this weight.
This has reinforced to me that if you plan it you can succeed. The slushy kept me busy for ages & filled me up - I didn't even miss the other stuff.

[Fireball]

My dog is an Anatolian Shepherd. She is quite tall and weighs 35 kg. My excess weight is 50kg. So I am carrying around in extra weight, my dog + 4 chihuahuas or 1 cocker spaniel. That is crazy - no wonder my legs and feet are often painful.

[GoddessInside]

Well done on the movies Fireball ! That's an excellent achievement

Could you and your daughter do this together ? That way you're both helping and supporting eachother, instead of doing this by yourself.

[sassi]

you will totally nail this fireball - you sound sooooo determined.

changes like what you ate (or rather, didn't eat!!) last night at the movies are gonna make all the difference!

you WILL achieve your goals

[Fireball]

Thanks you for your encouragement. I feel quite dependent on this forum to keep motivated. Reading your threads helps me too!

My daughter lives in the country. Her husband and her lost a heap of weight a few years back but she put most of it on after her first baby - had depression, with good reason too - some really serious issues but I wont go into that here. They have just had a new baby and are both aiming to get healthier together this year. I still feel it is importnat for me to set a good example to her is becasue being her mum, if she sees I am successful I think she will have a lot more confidence in her ability to lose the weight and keep it off.

My husband is over weight but he doesnt even want to discuss it. He skips meals & binges. When its his turn to cook he often makes huge & very fattening meals for us both. One of the many things I need to learn to deal with. We both used to smoke and I quit while he kept smoking - he quit years later. I intend to do the same with my weight. If I set up a healthier lifestyle he can join me when he feels like it. In the mean time, I dont nag him. When I cook I give him healthy meals but I dont force things on him, eg. he wants his bread rolls with butter on top & bottom, I do that for him because it is his right to choose how he wants to eat his food.

[Mummyof3]

Hi fireball, i bet you will are already a good example for your daughter, i wish you all the best with the healthier lifestyle overall, I wish you well with all your goals..

Good going at the movies, I just love the ice-cream at the movies, awww yum, but good on you, you made a good choice that you didn't end up regretting in the end,