
i've been doing this thing since late september/early october 2006. My 'lightbulb moment' if i can call it that was a shopping trip in mid september 06 to melbourne. there were so many gorgeous things, most of which they didn't have my size or i couldn't fit. one thing iw anted most was a guess tank top - but they were all quite small sizes and didn't go up to my size - the L even looked really small. so i was determined to lose my excess weight so i wouldn't have that problem. the pics also were horrible, i haven't shown them to anyone. it was a long time coming really - i piled on a lot of the weight when i was in yr 12 (2005) and a bit before that in yr 11. with the stress of TEE and not knowing what i wanted to do with my life. lots of assignments + stress = MAJOR overeating.
i was a bit of a chubby kid, but in yr 9 or so grew out of it a little, only to put it back on a few years later. food was always a reward, and i never knew how to deal with stress apart from eating. it's still hard sometimes but i just have to tell myself that that chocolate or icecream isn't going to fix anything and it isn't going to make me feel better about myself. so i started really getting into this thing. i've lost 2 jeans sizes already, and gone from a XL top to an M. I'd still love to go down one more size, but i'll see how it all goes

the main change i made was with my eating - less junk food, watchin what i eat, and really not eating so much crap just because its there or cos im at uni and there's nothing else. i also used to drink lots of coke and eat things that were quick and easy.
Since coming back from greece last july, i've been put off take away. i spent a month there and learnt how amazing food can be - why have maccas or hj's or something gross and full of fat when in 15 minutes i can quickly make something that is so much better for me and tastes so much better too. so i don't really see the need for take away. although i must say i do love some chips or chinese as a treat

hoping to start up with the exercise again soon - i've got a gym membership - just got to start using it again

i want to do it by my next melbourne shopping trip - most likely in june or july on my uni break. i want to be able to go and buy whatever i want and not have to worry about whether it's too tight or if i look fat or whatever.
i'm feeling much more confident since i've lost most of my weight - i feel so much better and i think i look much better too - i love getting comments to know that i do look different and that i'm doing something for ME instead of for everyone else. i also now have a very lovely boy - we've been together almost 11 months now and he makes me feel like the most beautiful girl every single day


sorry this is so long, just wanted to get it all out there
